Happy 0.083! :)

Happy 1st Monthsary to us! :)

Aedner and i waited for the clock to strike 12mn of sept 30, 2008 (Chicago time). When it was just a couple of minutes before midnight, the extension phone aedner was using ran out of battery. waaaah! :( no choice, we hafta put down the phone. argh! good thing we were still able to continue our conversation using yahoo wap. :) from there, we waited for 12mn and greeted each other HAPPY MONTHSARY & prayed together. :)
May our love grow stronger each day and may we have more monthsaries to celebrate!
I LOVE YOU, bebe ko! *hugz*

Carla heart Aedner

Hmnn...where do i begin? :)

The first time i saw aedner was way back in april 2008. i just came home from an onshore assignment in new york then. there were lotsa new faces in ODC, and one of 'em was Aedner. Later i found out that we actually belong to the same project but of different teams. he belongs to the offshore testing team while i belong to the data-prep team. We we're not acquainted at all. as far as i can remember, our paths never crossed in hallways or in office aisles. pardon, but i really forgot how i first heard or knew his name. yet, i can somehow recall the name coz it's unique.. i've never known anyone named 'aedner'. never seen him in the 37th floor for i dunno how long. i am also not aware that his workstation was transferred to the 39th floor..we're simply colleagues at work then. :)

A few months later came the announcement of onshore assignment in Illinois , initially via email. The first thing i did was find out who the other eleven persons i'm gonna work with for that proj. Amongst the 11, i was only familiar of two names and one of the two is randy tolentino (aedner's real name). So what's the etymology of 'Aedner'? Accdg to Randy Tolentino himself, Aedner is how you read Randy backwards..just like a palindrome. Hmnn with some twist on the pronunciation I guess just to make it sound....nice :) My first conversation with Aedner was..... during our handover call , two days before our flight date..askin' me about my flight details and the reason why I haven't joined the team dinner prior the handover call..twas just actually a short, simple conversation.. :)

I just got to know more about Aedner during our flight from Japan to Chicago . We were seated together on the rear of the plane. We were both complaining on the disturbing sound of the roaring plane engine that wouldn't permit us to sleep. :P In between meals or whenever we're both awake, we share a good conversation..anything goes. :) We also had vodka with apple juice. :) twas a bad timing drinking vodka in the midst of turbulence. waaah! Got me tipsy..but I'm glad I didn't vomit! Waahaa! ..This plane incident was the start of friendship. :)

During our first few weeks in Chicago , we spent most of the time together simply because we're on the same car pool.. we share a smooth ride to and from the office...go to places together..hang out together..even at the office, our workstations were just next to each other..i was just simply enjoying the camaraderie then..nothing more than that. :)

A few more weeks pass by..i got to know aedner more...appreciating things he did not just for me but to his team/friends as well. Honestly, I find him sweet not just to his friends but most of all to his family. I got to know the persons who play a meaningful part in his life based from his stories.. (but not his past romantic relationships. believe me I knew nothing about his past relationships then. All I know is that that he's single and available :P) Unconsciously I got used to spending time with the group with Aedner always by my side or somewhere close to me. :) At that time, all I know is that I enjoy his company. :) It never crossed my mind that he's treating me special amongst the rest. Believe me, I couldn't tell! really!... OR is it just me, not giving malice on his acts? OR am i not sensitive enough to know? Truth is, I dunno exactly how my 'special' feeling for him started bugging the aorta of my heart and the hypothalamus of my brain. :) it just happened :) then it grew into something I unconsciously wouldn't admit..or I unconsciously wouldn't want to define.. coz I'm scared to face the 'truth' that what I felt was REAL and still struggling to determine by that time if the feeling is either WRONG or RIGHT!..haayz.. I was afraid that if I would listen carefully and paid much attention to the rhythm of my heart, I would eventually...FALL for him. *sigh*
I admit, I'm careful with my actions as well as in choosing my words just so it wouldn't show :P i'de rather keep the feeling to myself alone..but at the same time battling with my own heart, trying to suppress my feelings! waaah! twas so complicated! but i still chose to suppress my real emotions and was contented to keep it that way..for me, twas best if i kept it that way.

Time has come for the magic 10 to go back to ODC..everyone seems extremely happy and excited going home to meet their loved ones and friends.. yes, I do miss my family and friends too and I am happy to see them again..but a part of me was partly torn apart..and it's because Aedner's not coming back with us to phil..the thought that I only have a couple of days left to talk to him..listen to his stories..ool around with him..sit next to him.. made me feel so SAD... :(
But still, i didn't want him or anyone else from the team to notice that i was sadder than sad, especially on our last day in Illinois. :( i tried to hold back the tears when i waved goodbye...i can feel the lump of pain stuck in my throat from trying to hold back..in the corners of my mind i was trying to convince myself i would be ok and that i have to eventually move on... :(

The following week upon my arrival in phil, Aedner constantly kept in touch thru ym voice, chat, and phone calls. and to keep the long story short... somewhere in the middle of our conversation, he just confessed his feelings for me, saying he's serious in courting me..i think by that time, he was able to say everything he was supposed to say and tell me things i was supposed to know *blush*. :) so let's just keep it that way *wink*.. honestly, i was surprised because i really wasn't expecting that's how special I am to him..as he is to me :) the truth is, i really couldn't tell by his gestures that he likes me then though i felt his thoughtfulness and care...coz as per my observation, he's also doing the same thing to his friends..well, well he's "maasikaso", sweet and thoughtful in nature. :) *ehem!* ..the same reason why he got my "i'm yours" aka "YES!!!" :)
yes, i borrowed the words "i'm yours" from jason mraz song to confirm that it's official. :) and now i'm officially his! and he's mine. :) so this is how it feels. :) weeeeee! :D
yes, i am inspired. and he is! At first we're a lil confused of the date and time hehe coz we're in different time zones. but we decided to follow Chicago time. after all, that's where it all started. :)

This is just the prologue of our love story. many things are yet to unfold. May God continue to bless and guide us as we unravel His plan for both of us. :)

and yes, i'm happy. he's happy. we are in love! :D

Aedner heart Carla

30 Days in Love
by Aedner

I hardly noticed that 30 days has passed since I got her “I'm Yours”. Here’s a recap of all the things that happened and how the two hearts unite. Hopefully I can still pick up all the details in my memory.

Friday July 18, I met Jake at NAIA and asked him “where’s Carla?” he told me maybe she’s late. As usual, she’s always late. At the ODC Office I always notice her as a late person and when she enters the room I think she’s always lost. Ok, no comment.
I sat beside Jake during our trip from Manila to Japan because we checked-in our luggage at the same time. And Carla, I don’t know where she sits. Hahaha. Upon arrival at Narita International Airport, we tried to wait for Carla coz we have the same flight from Japan to Chicago while Jake has a different flight number. Carla sits beside me during our trip. We talked about everything under the sun. We enjoyed drinking some vodka with apple juice in the midst of the turbulence. That was the first bonding moment we had.

During our stay here, I never thought that I will be falling in love with her. I just knew that she’s so kind and generous in every aspect and I also never imagined that she will also fall in love with me because we are on the different track. I’m her opposite, I always sermon her about the things she does, but I know those advices I gave her was for her own sake. I always get mad when she sleeps so late then go to office floating. But I understand her because she told me that she’s an insomniac. Ok!!! Reason accepted.

We had lots of good memories here in Chicago, we’re not conscious about the things we do together but some of our friends noticed that we are so attached. We always found ourselves sitting next to each other or beside each other and I always provide her drinks during meals. Is that an indication that we are in love? I think not, because I usually do it to my other girl friends. That’s me, how sweet…hahaha…

We’re always together during our groceries and we asked each other’s opinion before buying or doing something. Actually, sometimes I feel there’s something different but of course, as always you need to pass to a denial process. Until that farewell day comes. Ruby and I will stay here in Chicago for another project and the rest of the team will be going back to Philippines. I can’t imagine myself without them, I don’t know how to react and feel. I’m so scared coz I can’t see myself alone, but I have no choice. I need to face my fears and be man enough to conquer my ghost.

Two more days left before they’re going back home, I remember I texted her “I will miss you” before we go to sleep. I know in myself there is something inside me that bothers me most but I don’t know how to express it. I told myself this is nothing; you will just miss her company and tomorrow you will forget that feeling. The night has come and the feeling was still on me, it didn’t dissolve. This is something I need to voice out, else I will explode or regret this someday. I don’t wanna see her packing all her things and putting it all back in the luggage. I want to tell her to stay but It’s not possible. I wanna say please don’t go these tears are no yet ready to flow, take my hand and don’t leave me here tonight. I wanna hug her but I can’t coz that time there were no strings attached yet. I might get a bad impression and she might be shocked with my action. The saddest day came, I couldn’t control it anymore. Her eyes were looking into mine and I was having the hardest time. Her hands were ready to wave goodbye and my lips were ready to kiss her goodbye.

My longing continued when I transferred to Butterfield even though we ensure that we’ll always keep the communication lines open. When we were in the middle of a conversation, I suddenly exploded, I voiced out all the feelings I have for her coz I was trapped inside the moment. I don’t know how will she react but I need to release this feeling and tell her. She was shocked I know, but I know she will absorb everything I said at the right time. I didn’t wait for her answer coz I have no right. I thought that was our last time to chat but the day after that breath taking moment, she also expressed her feelings and I got her “I’M YOURS”…

Now I’m happy, she’s happy, we are in LOVE.

I pray that this will last forever. I LOVE YOU, bebe.

Date with My Bro

My brother, patrick is my constant date for the past few weeks :) We jive coz we almost have the same likes and can talk about anything and everything under the sun. well, he asked me out last friday but then i hafta stay late in the office. work duty calls so i have no choice. tsk tsk.

anyway, here are our Sunday bonding moments... :)

Church Service at Greenbelt Chapel
Just wanna share an inspiring homily from Father Jun Cescon, who by the way is one of my fave priests in greenbelt church..it's the way he organize his thoughts and put it into words that urges me to listen attentively the entire homily. I used to attend the wednesday novena mass in greebelt chapel when i was still in my previous company, that's why. Here's what i understood from his homily..
What matters most is not the start of something but the ending. you may not know when your time would end so you better fix things before your time is up..He also talked about IDD (integrity deficiency disorder), an emotional disorder of being reactive instead of being proactive. Reactive in a sense that we let other people influence our lives and we point our fingers on others instead of blaming ourselves when everything seems to go wrong..On the otherhand, being proactive is standing for what you believe in. He talked about relationships as an example, saying that it's not the beginning of the relationship that matters most but how the relationship would become along the way. reflecting on what he said, i think he's right. what matters most is trying to make the relationship work out. For instance, it's not the grand wedding you have at the start of marriage but your relationship as a couple that matters..being proactive in keeping your vows, giving room for fidelity and love to grow....nice huh? :)

Teriyaki Boy
We had chicken teriyaki, pork katsudon and kikiage tempura for lunch! sluurp! and yeah, our stomachs were satisfied! *burp* :)

Timezone
While waiting for the movie, 'Bangkok Dangerous' to start in about 90 min, we decided to play at timezone. Saw Alex Crissano, a PBA basketball player playing the..uhmn, i forgot the name of the arcade game. hehe.. ;P Me and my bro played "House of the Dead" and "Daytona USA"..before we knew, we only have a few minutes before the show starts so we hurried back to glorietta cinema7.

Bangkok Dangerous
It's an action movie with lead actor, Nicolas Cage, who plays the professional assassin. He picks someone to do his errands and afterwards, kills the person as not to leave any evidence. yea, the story is so typical and predictable. I am not satisfied with the film..waaah!


publishing draft....blogpost in progress :P
i'm sleepy waah! hafta get a doze of zzZZs!
good mornyt! ciao!

Perfect Pair :)

aedner and I both have a pair of brazil havaianas :)
mine is white and his is yellow.
perfect pair! aren't they cute? *wink*

yea, for me it's something! ...something that reminds me of aedner everytime i wear those white flipflops.. :)

Bridging the Distance

"Distance never seperates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad coz I miss you I remind myself how blessed I am to have someone so special to miss.” -anonymous


Personally, i do believe that long distance relationships can work out for as long as it is built with Honesty, Understanding, Respect, Trust, and Sincerity. Just as what my bebe told me, i should always remember the acronym HURTS. Literally, it hurts when you miss someone so badly and couldn't do anything but just think of him and hoping he's at your side right that very moment. with this, you experience the pain of longing. But for as long as you remain in each other's hearts, you can always be closer despite the physical distance.

things i like about aedner :)

weird! i was speechless when bebe called up this morning :) twas as if i'm caught in between longing (missing him) and contentment (when i heard his jolly voice) and was just enjoying the feeling for awhile. :) thanks for calling, be! you make my day! :) aedner is sweet, thoughtful, and nice...you'll see! lemme count the ways... :)

1) he never fails to greet me in the morning (like a customized alarm clock on my mobile phone.. "gud am be, have a nice day..iloveyou..muah!) :) hihi
2) i love the way he says i love you on the phone especially when he says it over and over again while waiting for my response. :)
3) checkin' on me whenever he can..even in the midst of his drinking spree session :)
4) getting me something which he thinks i need..without asking him for it. like...a glass of water. (this is the most concrete example i can give that we couldn't forget! hehe)
5) i like the way he comforts me when he knows i'm sad or crying. i only cried for two reasons: i miss him and i'm so happy! ..he wraps his arms around me *though i just let my imagination run free! hehe but in fairness, he's sincere. :)
6) he's open minded to discuss things
7) he's sensitive enough to know how i feel.
8) he's considerate enough to put his feet on my shoes.
9) reminds me to sleep early. especially when we were in illinois pa :)
10) he cooks for his friends wholeheartedly :)
11) shares what he have in anyway he can..to his family and friends
12) finds time and ways to keep in touch with people close to his heart.
13) knows how to appreciate things and express his gratitude.
14) admits his trespasses and humble enough to apologize.
15) sweet enough to consider my opinion and feelings before he makes decisions :)


i simply love the way he loves me. :)
thank you,be!

missing aedner...

I couldn't seem to find the exact words that describe exactly how i feel at this point in time.
i'm exasperated, trying to control myself from breaking down. but still, i failed. i miss aedner so badly :( ..tears roll down my cheeks swiftly, one after another. i know, i know! i'm weak when it comes to this! i do cry when i miss someone.. but hey, i am trying to be strong!
know what, for the first time in a long time, i prayed with tears in my eyes..pouring my heart out to God that may He give me strength to face the loneliness i feel tonight.. and yes i feel God's comfort coz i know He listens..i know He understands what i'm going through..and i know He's holding my hand just like in the past chapters of my life. the only difference now is that, God is holding aedner's hand and mine side by side.. God loves each of us more than we love each other. thank you, God! :)
And tonight, i also found comfort in words of a friend..my-so-called-mommy ruby. she told me to hang on tight & be strong..and lit my face with her joke. :) thank you po! :) yeah, i am holding tightly and patiently waiting for my bebe aedner to come home.

wait! my bebe just texted me..askin what am i doin' :) he's on his lunch break. :)
weeeee, i feel alot better! that's all for now..until then... :)

Prologue

Heya!

Welcome to my new blog! :)
This is the new chapter of my life...my life with Aedner. :)
Journeying through life with someone special for the first time gives my life a different meaning.
The journey has just began and i'm gonna make this blog a treasure chest of memories :)